Pictures from my last visit with Lillian and her sweet family!

I've had several people ask me if visiting the child I placed is harder than it's worth. I instantly answer, no!

That doesn't mean it isn't hard, but it is worth it. 

It can be difficult, but I don't think placing a child for adoption is ever easy. It's something that will always be hard in one way or another but its 100% worth it. It's not a situation that gets easier with time, it's a situation that helps you become stronger. As you gain knowledge of Gods plan for you and the child, it becomes more clear, and with that understanding you're able to gain a relationship. A relationship that is so beautiful and pure you couldn't imagine your life without it. Yes it's a process, but you need to give it time. 

Seeing her bright smiling face and strengthening the relationship I have with her brings so much pure joy into my life that I wouldn't trade for the world. 

 I love little Josie's curls! :) 

She's beautiful!

I got her this cute backpack in Mexico

Dr. Lillian 

She would tell us: "you have an infection, you need medicine" 

I love these girls so much! 

A big thanks to Holly and Dave for always welcoming me into their house and for our incredible friendship! I love you guys more than words can express! xoxo 

Happy Birth Mothers Day

This weekend is a very special weekend where we celebrate our amazing mothers. We reflect on our memories with them and feel an over powering feeling of love and gratitude for what they have done for us.

Today I am happy to celebrate being a Birth Mom to the most precious little girl in the entire world! I couldn't be more grateful for the special role we play in each others lives and for her sweet parents inviting me to be such a big part of their lives. Being a Birth Mom is anything but easy, but it is worth it. It's a beautiful title that I cherish with my entire heart! 

I hope that all of my fellow Birth Moms feel love and cherished on this special day! xoxo 

Happy Birthday Lillian! :)

This cute little lady is 3 years old today!

I can't believe its already been three years since her sweet spirit entered into this world. At times it feels like it was just yesterday and yet it feels like I can't recall a time that she wasn't in my life. She has truly blessed and touched my life in ways that can not be expressed. 

Monday's Visit :)

A picture is worth a thousand words right, well here's 12 pictures for you! 

 

That smile of hers :)  

 Theres nothing I love more than watching her play with her mom and dad! :) 

Always so happy! 

 Showin off her big muscles 

I live for that smile! 

Thanks Holly for capturing these tender moments! :) 

Her kisses are my favorite! 

Kisses through the rubber band

 I love you Lillian! xoxo 

I consider myself the luckiest Birth Mom EVER!

  And here's 4 reasons why.. 

 Meet Dave, Holly, Lillian and Josie. 

     I met Holly and Dave exactly one week before little Lillian arrived, not for lack of searching. Simply said, fate brought us together just in time. I knew from the second I met them that I had just met Lillian's parents. I can't explain the feeling but it was so strong and so powerful that there was no denying it. I cherish that confirmation and have reflected on it several times throughout the years. Holly and I instantly became friends and I know without her I couldn't have made it through the rough times.  She is one of the most amazing women I know. 

      Little Josie came as a surprise and honestly a miracle. They had a long complicated road on their journey to have children and just a month or so after I placed Lillian with them they found out they were pregnant.  Lillian and Josie are the best of friends and theres nothing I love more than seeing them continue to grow closer and closer. 

I look forward to sharing more of our story with you soon! :) 

Photo Credit: Peg Watkins Photography 

Stay tuned, I get to see them tonight and will post a few pictures either tonight or tomorrow. :) 

Introducing Lillian!

Before I share part two of my story, over the next couple of days I want to introduce a few people you should know.

First, and most important, is little miss Lillian! (aka, owner of my heart) 

Words can not begin to express how much I love this little lady. There's not a person in the world that makes me as happy as she does. Needless to say, she had me at hello! :) 

From day one, I knew that I would dedicate my life to making her happy; which doesn't take much effort because she always carries a beautiful smile, everywhere she goes.  

I will never forget the immediate love I felt during pregnancy, and how that love was dramatically increased the first time she was placed into my arms and it continues to grow every time she returns. It's hard to explain the connection I feel with her; however, it is one that I cherish with all my heart. 

Photo Credit: Peg Watkins Photography 

Isn't she stunning! (I'm not bias or anything) :)